My Take on Chris Brown

First of all I’d like to give a shout out to his fans #teambreezy..they really go hard for him..and it goes to show that regardless of the mistakes you make in life..there will always be people that still love and support you..so for that..I tip my hat off to you all……BUT at the same token..he as well as the fans /supporters need to realize that you cannot blame the media..and I say this because chris has not been the first to be bombarded with questions of his past mistakes nor will he be the last..its what they do..they make a living off of this..I don’t say it with great joy but its gonna follow him..watching the good morning america interview was a trip bc..its like..robin wasn’t being malicious..she was basically doing her job..his reaction though..I felt sorry for him bc he was basically making himself an easier target..yes you have your interviewers who care deeply for you and won’t put you in that awkward spot..but you also have those that don’t give a damn about his or anybody elses feelings and will ask you up front..I feel like he needs a better support system..who won’t baby’fy him..that come to him in love but also in truth..I think its a beautiful thing to have people that fight for you regardless of what you do..but quite frankly..its been used as a crutch..its hurting him more than helping him..you can’t just let it go..now I’ve never been a victim of domestic violence..but I can look at situations from various angles without being bias..what about the fans..that have been abused..chris as well as rihanna could be such positive advocates..yes it was a tragic event but its so common..ppl need help..why not go out and talk to the people..beat the media to the punch..all while letting the healing process take place..that situation..as unfortunate as it was..can be turned around into something so brilliant..so influential..and they can reach countless numbers..touching the lives of those who feel like there’s no hope..yes it is a sensitive subject..but this is a reality for people these days..stop trying to let it go and speak up! That’s the problem..it won’t go away so embrace it for what was but don’t let it define who you are..yes he is human..but that saying to me is like an excuse..we all are human..that goes without saying..he as well as rihanna have a public outlet that I feel can be taken advantage of to raise awareness and help ppl overcome..needless to say..I wish them both the best..

un-foolish........

this is for the one..who wised up..here's to the one that opened their eyes to the truth..this one is for those not afraid to pour their heart and soul out in the midst of a world full of criticism..this goes out..to you..for using wisdom......thank you

My Thoughts..My Theory

im a quiet person by nature..very soft spoken unless i have a reason to speak up or i just feel the need to really be heard. ppl tend to think that being meek equals weakness but its actually strength under control..so anyways within the last few weeks i had to deal with ppl talking about me..saying things loud enough to where i can hear it but they knew they had the right one bc i wont comment on it unless spoken to directly.. i was getting frustrated bc i knew i wasnt wrong..and if i was i could own up to it with no problem..this is when i heard the voice of the Lord telling me to not say anything..just pray for them..to continue to walk in love bc just like ill reap what i sow..they will as well..so i did..then i thought about it..youre not supposed to ever put your mouth on a child of God..period..then i waited bc i knew it was coming..I asked God to have mercy on them bc they had no clue what position they put themselves in..

then it all it the fan..

the Lord will reveal to you things to come..and i saw it plain as day..the same ones gossiping about me turned on each other..all i could do was shake my head..arguments..pettiness..more lies..ppl getting "found out"..its just a mess..i try my best to continue to pray for them though bc some situations go a whole lot deeper and way too personal..some very abusive..verbal and physical..ill say this too though..God still reveals so while theyre telling lies to keep from being embarrassed by the truth..i know the deal before they finish off the "story"..

so now..im the go-to person..let me go to D. bc i know she wont talk about me like the rest do..let me spark up a convo now so if whenver im feeling the heat..i can run to her..

i dont mind it though..it doesnt bother me like it used to bc i dont take it personal..but ive realized that for one..they know who and who not to step to incorrectly which proves to me that they arent as bold as they claim to be..if you have to talk mess in front of a crowd..but once theyre gone youre as humble as a lamb..i can see that..around certain people you wont dare pop off bc they'd have no problem bringing you back to reality..i see that too..my heart is starting to go out to them bc i have peace in my life..i sleep wonderful..i have positive people im my household..i know nothing about getting cursed out..i dont know about spousal abuse..my parents have been together for 24 years..and happy..ive had my issues but nothing to the extreme..and this is very well known..so its like if i cant match her lifestyle..ill try to make her days here at work rough..but theyve failed at that as well..

one thing im working on is the part in the scripture that says "love pays no attention to a suffered wrong"..im getting better at it..not all the way there YET lol..but im managing..

i guess thats it for now..and ill try to update more often..so...until next time...

Know Your Worth

i was watching joel osteen last night and he opened my eyes to some things...his message was based on knowing your worth..

we sometimes tend to put our worth..or value in opinions of other people, in what we have, in our looks, in our achievements and/or disappointments..these are just trivial things..so imagine what happens if someone says something to put you down..or later own down the line your life isnt "what it should have been"

you notice how something negative always seems to speak louder in our minds? its time for us to take control of our thoughts and understand our worth.

take a crisp &100 bill..its value is what? $100 right?????

but what if i ball it up..whats the value?

or what if i place it in front of my car and run over it..put the car in reverse and go over it again..whats the value of it?

what if i grabbed a fist full of dirt and covered the bill with it from from to back..whats the value of that dollar? STILL $100 correct?

no matter if ppl ran over you..drug your name through the mud countless times..your value remains the same but its all up to you to realize that...God handpicked YOU for a reason...yea sure you might not be tall enough but youre just right in His eyes..you may not think youre pretty/handsome enough..but youre beautiful in His eyes..He made you in his image..maybe you arent where you could be in life..He's willing to show you how to get there if you give him a chance..

stop letting negative things cloud your mind and hinder you from being your best..

we all have things we need to work on..but one of the main things is seeing our worth for what it is which is not our parents, friends, co-workers, children, or anybody elses eyes..but God..you are His favorite..only God can have each and every one of us as favorite and love us unconditionally, not picking one over the other based on achievements, status, looks, degree, finance or what have you..

I encourage you all to have another outlook on your life..know your worth and act up on it..there is no one else like you..there will be no one else that comes close to doing what you do..do not let fear of rejection/being talked about stop you from anything..be more conscious of God with you than people coming against you..renew your minds!!!!! ask Him to help you take control of your emotions..pray for wisdom..no matter what..stay positive..keep a good attitude and show LOVE..itll only work out for your benefit..

My Honeybun Cake Recipe

i made it last night and everybody loved it..im making it again now..anywho..it doesnt take much and its sooooo good..in your free time..try it out

1 box of yellow cake mix (any brand)

8 ounce(1 container) sour cream

4 eggs

3/4 cup vegetable oil (maybe alittle more if you'd like)

4 tbs milk

1 tbs vanilla extract

1 tbs of ground cinnamon

1 cup brown sugar

2 cup confectioners sugar

Preheat the oven to 325...in a big bowl mix up the cake mix, the oil, the sour cream and the eggs..stir it up until the majority of the large lumps are gone...ooooh dont forget to grease *whatever* youre gonna put it in..long pan..the cake thingy with the part that makes the hole in the middle (bundt lol duh)..pam does fine..after youve stirred it up real good and the bundt is greased..put HALF of the batter in it..what you do now is mix up your brown sugar and cinnamon (you can do it in the measuring cup)..make sure its blended well and pour half of it in the batter..then mix it up..once its mixed real good..you can add the other half of the batter and do the same with the last bit of your brown sugar and cinnamon..mix it up good..put it in the oven for about 45 minutes or until the toothpick comes out clean

Frosting

Take your milk sugar and vanilla extract..put it in a bowl and mix it..you can put it in the frig until the cake is done or make it after you take the cake out of the oven..be sure to put it on while its still hot though..

*Sidenote* I put an extra couple tbs of milk in mine..i didnt want it as thick..you can tweak it however you like though..

Enjoy!!!

Health Awareness

i know some people are like..whats the "brighter side" to getting sick..well..for me..it brought me closer to my bible..which is where i should have been all along..and with THAT being said..from reading it..ive gotten the advice i needed..from not only the word but from my dad..first of all..losing that weight..i dont see it as a terrible thing now..i know that what i gain will be from "healthier" foods..my goal is to stick with my water way more and the juices..but moreso the water..the pounds will come back in no time but im going to start my exercise up again so it wont turn into fat..the pilates and the yoga especially..maybe had i not stopped..i wouldnt have this problem with my neck or my back..ive come across some other ways or natural "cures" to help me out..as i experiment...ill keep everything documented..thought it shouldnt have taken me to get alittle under the weather to get a jump start on a healthier living..what better time to do so than now..

sunday "health scare" ..tuesday health awareness

so sunday..everything started off normal..went to church..came home..ate..relaxed..i even did my nails..as a matter of fact..i made it to work atleast 15 minutes ahead of time and got a round of applause lol..everything was going great until around 6..i started feeling tired just randomly..so im like no..i need to have a seat..i did what i needed to do and when everything got slow i told my manager i was going to sit out in the lobby where its cool..i sat there for awhile thinking that maybe i just got too hot and needed to cool off..more time passed and i noticed my hands began to shake and im still hot with this urge to sit down and take a load off..i pushed through and kept taking my orders until i just out of the blue i felt the tears coming to my eyes..not sure of why im crying but i let my manager know i needed to go to the restroom..im trying to catch my breath and figure out exactly why the tears are falling because i actually wasnt in any pain...i was sitting on the floor because i just felt too lazy to stand and i tried to regain everything back..after maybe 10 minutes i came back..i made the decision to not drive home so i called my mom and told her what was up..i did plan on working my full shift but i thought it would be wise to let them pick me up and one of them drive my car..about 5 minutes later..it hit me again..and this time way harder..i was literally gasping for air..i think the tears came from a possible shock..because like i said..i was in NO pain..i just couldnt catch my breath so it bugged me out..my manager came in and found me on the floor in tears so she took me outside then i called my aunt but she'd spoken with my mom and was on the way to get me..man..i was breathing just..crazy..dehydration is a TRIP..thats pretty much all it was..i got some liquids in me..so yesterday i was just drowsy..i slept the majority of the day..i stepped on the scale a few days ago and noticed i dropped from 117 to 112 and then yesterday to 111..which is very visible if my dad (of all people) pointed it out..so last night..i had like this pain from my lower neck and the upper right part of my back..where it came from..i have no idea but i couldnt sleep like i wanted to..today was much better..i got up out of the bed..i sat outside..my mom brought me some pain medicine but i still feel it so im not sure whats up with that..im actually on my sisters laptop in my room (in my bed) because Lord knows im not trying to sit at that computer..im going to cut this post short so i can get in into my next one on how im using this to my benefit...