un-foolish........

this is for the one..who wised up..here's to the one that opened their eyes to the truth..this one is for those not afraid to pour their heart and soul out in the midst of a world full of criticism..this goes out..to you..for using wisdom......thank you

My Thoughts..My Theory

im a quiet person by nature..very soft spoken unless i have a reason to speak up or i just feel the need to really be heard. ppl tend to think that being meek equals weakness but its actually strength under control..so anyways within the last few weeks i had to deal with ppl talking about me..saying things loud enough to where i can hear it but they knew they had the right one bc i wont comment on it unless spoken to directly.. i was getting frustrated bc i knew i wasnt wrong..and if i was i could own up to it with no problem..this is when i heard the voice of the Lord telling me to not say anything..just pray for them..to continue to walk in love bc just like ill reap what i sow..they will as well..so i did..then i thought about it..youre not supposed to ever put your mouth on a child of God..period..then i waited bc i knew it was coming..I asked God to have mercy on them bc they had no clue what position they put themselves in..

then it all it the fan..

the Lord will reveal to you things to come..and i saw it plain as day..the same ones gossiping about me turned on each other..all i could do was shake my head..arguments..pettiness..more lies..ppl getting "found out"..its just a mess..i try my best to continue to pray for them though bc some situations go a whole lot deeper and way too personal..some very abusive..verbal and physical..ill say this too though..God still reveals so while theyre telling lies to keep from being embarrassed by the truth..i know the deal before they finish off the "story"..

so now..im the go-to person..let me go to D. bc i know she wont talk about me like the rest do..let me spark up a convo now so if whenver im feeling the heat..i can run to her..

i dont mind it though..it doesnt bother me like it used to bc i dont take it personal..but ive realized that for one..they know who and who not to step to incorrectly which proves to me that they arent as bold as they claim to be..if you have to talk mess in front of a crowd..but once theyre gone youre as humble as a lamb..i can see that..around certain people you wont dare pop off bc they'd have no problem bringing you back to reality..i see that too..my heart is starting to go out to them bc i have peace in my life..i sleep wonderful..i have positive people im my household..i know nothing about getting cursed out..i dont know about spousal abuse..my parents have been together for 24 years..and happy..ive had my issues but nothing to the extreme..and this is very well known..so its like if i cant match her lifestyle..ill try to make her days here at work rough..but theyve failed at that as well..

one thing im working on is the part in the scripture that says "love pays no attention to a suffered wrong"..im getting better at it..not all the way there YET lol..but im managing..

i guess thats it for now..and ill try to update more often..so...until next time...

Know Your Worth

i was watching joel osteen last night and he opened my eyes to some things...his message was based on knowing your worth..

we sometimes tend to put our worth..or value in opinions of other people, in what we have, in our looks, in our achievements and/or disappointments..these are just trivial things..so imagine what happens if someone says something to put you down..or later own down the line your life isnt "what it should have been"

you notice how something negative always seems to speak louder in our minds? its time for us to take control of our thoughts and understand our worth.

take a crisp &100 bill..its value is what? $100 right?????

but what if i ball it up..whats the value?

or what if i place it in front of my car and run over it..put the car in reverse and go over it again..whats the value of it?

what if i grabbed a fist full of dirt and covered the bill with it from from to back..whats the value of that dollar? STILL $100 correct?

no matter if ppl ran over you..drug your name through the mud countless times..your value remains the same but its all up to you to realize that...God handpicked YOU for a reason...yea sure you might not be tall enough but youre just right in His eyes..you may not think youre pretty/handsome enough..but youre beautiful in His eyes..He made you in his image..maybe you arent where you could be in life..He's willing to show you how to get there if you give him a chance..

stop letting negative things cloud your mind and hinder you from being your best..

we all have things we need to work on..but one of the main things is seeing our worth for what it is which is not our parents, friends, co-workers, children, or anybody elses eyes..but God..you are His favorite..only God can have each and every one of us as favorite and love us unconditionally, not picking one over the other based on achievements, status, looks, degree, finance or what have you..

I encourage you all to have another outlook on your life..know your worth and act up on it..there is no one else like you..there will be no one else that comes close to doing what you do..do not let fear of rejection/being talked about stop you from anything..be more conscious of God with you than people coming against you..renew your minds!!!!! ask Him to help you take control of your emotions..pray for wisdom..no matter what..stay positive..keep a good attitude and show LOVE..itll only work out for your benefit..